I stayed the night for shelter at a farm Behind the mountains, with a mother and son, Two old-believers. They did all the talking.
MOTHER: Folks think a witch who has familiar spirits She could call up to pass a winter evening, But wonâ€™t, should be burned at the stake or something. Summoning spirits isnâ€™t â€œButton, button, Whoâ€™s got the button,â€ I would have them know.
SON: Mother can make a common table rear And kick with two legs like an army mule. MOTHER: And when Iâ€™ve done it, what good have I done? Rather than tip a table for you, let me Tell you what Ralle the Sioux Control once told me. He said the dead had souls, but when I asked him How could that be â€” I thought the dead were soulsâ€” He broke my trance. Donâ€™t that make you suspicious That thereâ€™s something the dead are keeping back? Yes, thereâ€™s something the dead are keeping back.
SON: You wouldnâ€™t want to tell him what we have Up attic, mother?
MOTHER: Bones â€” a skeleton. SON: But the headboard of motherâ€™s bed is pushed Against theâ€ attic door: the door is nailed. Itâ€™s harmless. Mother hears it in the night Halting perplexed behind the barrier Of door and headboard. Where it wants to get Is back into the cellar where it came from.
MOTHER: Weâ€™ll never let them, will we, son! Weâ€™ll never!
SON: It left the cellar forty years ago And carried itself like a pile of dishes Up one flight from the cellar to the kitchen, Another from the kitchen to the bedroom, Another from the bedroom to the attic, Right past both father and mother, and neither stopped it. Father had gone upstairs; mother was downstairs. I was a baby: I donâ€™t know where I was. 35 MOTHER: The only fault my husband found with me â€” I went to sleep before I went to bed, Especially in winter when the bed Might just as well be ice and the clothes snow. The night the bones came up the cellar-stairs Toffile had gone to bed alone and left me, But left an open door to cool the room off So as to sort of turn me out of it. I was just coming to myself enough To wonder where the cold was coming from, When I heard Toffile upstairs in the bedroom And thought I heard him downstairs in the cellar. The board we had laid down to walk dry-shod on When there was water in the cellar in spring Struck the hard cellar bottom. And then someone Began the stairs, two footsteps for each step, The way a man with one leg and a crutch, Or a little child, comes up. It wasnâ€™t Toffile: It wasnâ€™t anyone who could be there. The bulkhead double-doors were double-locked And swollen tight and buried under snow. The cellar windows were banked up with sawdust And swollen tight and buried under snow. It was the bones. I knew them â€” and good reason. My first impulse was to get to the knob And hold the door. But the bones didnâ€™t try The door; they halted helpless on the landing, Waiting for things to happen in their favor.â€ The faintest restless rustling ran all through them. I never could have done the thing I did If the wish hadnâ€™t been too strong in me To see how they were mounted for this walk. I had a vision of them put together Not like a man, but like a chandelier. So suddenly I flung the door wide on him. A moment he stood balancing with emotion, And all but lost himself. (A tongue of fire Flashed out and licked along his upper teeth. Smoke rolled inside the sockets of his eyes.) Then he came at me with one hand outstretched, The way he did in life once; but this time I struck the hand off brittle on the floor, And fell back from him on the floor myself. The finger-pieces slid in all directions. (Where did I see one of those pieces lately? Hand me my button-box- it must be there.) I sat up on the floor and shouted, â€œToffile, Itâ€™s coming up to you.â€ It had its choice Of the door to the cellar or the hall. It took the hall door for the novelty, And set off briskly for so slow a thing, Still going every which way in the joints, though, So that it looked like lightning or a scribble, From the slap I had just now given its hand. I listened till it almost climbed the stairs From the hall to the only finished bedroom, Before I got up to do anything; Then ran and shouted, â€œShut the bedroom door, Toffile, for my sake!â€ â€œCompany?â€ he said, â€œDonâ€™t make me get up; Iâ€™m too warm in bed.â€ So lying forward weakly on the handrail I pushed myself upstairs, and in the light (The kitchen had been dark) I had to own I could see nothing. â€œToffile, I donâ€™t see it. Itâ€™s with us in the room though. Itâ€™s the bones.â€ â€œWhat bones?â€ â€œThe cellar bonesâ€” out of the grave.â€ That made him throw his bare legs out of bed And sit up by me and take hold of me. I wanted to put out the light and see If I could see it, or else mow the room, With our arms at the level of our knees, And bring the chalk-pile down. â€œIâ€™ll tell you what- Itâ€™s looking for another door to try. The uncommonly deep snow has made him think Of his old song, The Wild Colonial Boy, He always used to sing along the tote-road. Heâ€™s after an open door to get out-doors. Letâ€™s trap him with an open door up attic.â€ Toffile agreed to that, and sure enough, Almost the moment he was given an opening, The steps began to climb the attic stairs. I heard them. Toffile didnâ€™t seem to hear them. â€œQuick !â€ I slammed to the door and held the knob. â€œToffile, get nails.â€ I made him nail the door shut, And push the headboard of the bed against it. Then we asked was there anything Up attic that weâ€™d ever want again. The attic was less to us than the cellar. If the bones liked the attic, let them have it. Let them stay in the attic. When they sometimes Come down the stairs at night and stand perplexed Behind the door and headboard of the bed, Brushing their chalky skull with chalky fingers, With sounds like the dry rattling of a shutter, Thatâ€™s what I sit up in the dark to sayâ€” To no one any more since Toffile died. Let them stay in the attic since they went there. I promised Toffile to be cruel to them For helping them be cruel once to him.
SON: We think they had a grave down in the cellar.
MOTHER: We know they had a grave down in the cellar.
SON: We never could find out whose bones they were.
MOTHER: Yes, we could too, son. Tell the truth for once. They were a manâ€™s his father killed for me. I mean a man he killed instead of me. The least I could do was to help dig their grave. We were about it one night in the cellar. Son knows the story: but â€œtwas not for him To tell the truth, suppose the time had come. Son looks surprised to see me end a lie Weâ€™d kept all these years between ourselves So as to have it ready for outsiders. But to-night I donâ€™t care enough to lieâ€” I donâ€™t remember why I ever cared. Toffile, if he were here, I donâ€™t believe Could tell you why he ever cared himself-
She hadnâ€™t found the finger-bone she wanted Among the buttons poured out in her lap. I verified the name next morning: Toffile. The rural letter-box said Toffile Lajway.